I did the thing…

I finally did it. I finally got to ride my horse last night. We just cruised around walk, trot, canter with the only intension of sitting there and enjoying it. I know he had three months off but I thought, “Why are you so stiff…” Oh wait… It’s me, I’m the problem.

This horse mirrors me to a fault.

I can’t blame him for that. I should actually be more thankful than anything. Obviously I cried for about 30 seconds because that’s what I do. As soon as I settled in the saddle and he walked off, there was this ultimate feeling of release. It lasted for a few seconds before I started messing with my rein and getting a leg on him. He wouldn’t let me in almost to say, “Just sit for a minute. Just chill.”

As soon as I did that I felt it.

Something I hadn’t felt in a while and not just because we’ve been on a holiday. I finally felt like I found the key to the box I had tucked away on the shelf. He had been holding on to it for me this whole time.

I know I’m getting a little ahead of myself but I’m already ready for this feeling again. Watching old videos sent me into a bit of a slump yesterday afternoon but after sitting on him again last night. We’re going to get out there no matter what I have to do to get there.

I’ve been thinking about how to hold myself accountable for both riding as well as my own fitness. The last couple years trying to figure things out brain wise has not been good for the rest of my body. Telling myself to blog every week is definitely a help. I waited until today because I really didn’t want to post again saying, “I still haven’t ridden my horse yet.”

But I did it and the plan is to pop shoes back on in six weeks. We’ll be off and running. And possibly saddle shopping so keep an eye out for me!

I really can’t wait to be sat behind these ears again either. Coming on three months of stall rest and after a vet check Monday, continued stall rest until we recheck x-rays in another 3 weeks or so. We’ll get there.

So… Until next time.